Confession

Tuesday, May 08, 2012 Claudia Phankova 4 Comments

I'm really not that cheesy type when it comes to a relationship. That's totally not my thing, well, you know, to love too much kinda thing. All along, I have always wondered how did it feel to give all your heart to someone when you know that someone might have a chance to break your heart. It was nonsense to me. I mean, like, um seriously? How could you be so sure that someone would truly take care of it? How could you be not scared when he walked away, he took all the pieces you gave him and left you with nothing but unhealed scars? I know when people are in love they tend to make the fool out of themselves, but I couldn't afford being one. I was that bitter. 
Until one day, you proved me wrong.
I have never felt this way before. I did things I have never done for anyone else. That is insane. I want to be able to cook so I can make you your favorite food. I am always trying my best to spend time together, and it's very often that I get mad when we can't make it. Reading your texts and our stupid convo (still) can draw a smile on my face. I start to include you in my future plan. 
Of course it's not always the sweet part. There is also the heart-breaking part. I mess up. I get jealous very easily and I am very demanding. Most of the time, I start fights. Another time, we ignore each other. We both have a bad day and pride is taking control over us. 
Nevertheless, it's not even a single second I regret that I chose to be with you. You teach me not to give up on us. You teach me to talk out our problem. You make me want to be a better person. 
To that, thank your for taking care of me. Thank you for being so patient with me when I'm grumpy/mad (which happens most of the time). Thank your for handling me at my worst. Thank you for making me feel like I'm the luckiest girl on earth. Thank your for coming into my life. :)
I'm afraid if this is a little too soon, but I secretly hope there are still years for us to count on. Let's just see, shall we?

Anyway, I can still remember the first day we met. I was walking in the lobby and noticed a guy walking past me who looked very surprised to see me. I swear at that time it didn't came up in my mind at all that we will end up together. Sweetest surprise, ever ;)


I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I TURN OUT TO BE SUCH A CHEESY PERSON.
Dear boyfie, you are responsible for this.



-Your baby.

4 comments:

  1. lovely sweet post!!!! love it! may the two of you be together forever!!

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  2. Claudiaaaa!! that's so sweet! Congrats for being so much in love! :* muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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  3. I wish I could give both of you really warm and tight hugs!!! <3

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  4. Such a romantic post! I love it so much! Tho I've never had any boyfriend for all my life, but seeing couples nowadays is confusing which makes me even lazier to start a relationship, teehee ^^ You have a nice blog, mind to follow each other? :)

    PS: I don't post shits... :p

    See you soon on my blog!

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